Frenzy

I am having a shopping attack for a camera. I want a small camera that I can hold easily in my hand and carry in my pocket with a reassuring feeling that I own something cool. Then I will enjoy reading reviews of the camera to confirm that I made a smart purchase.

The real question is why I’m in a frenzy to buy something new. These impulses come over me occasionally. Part of the feeling comes from trying to retrieve the past: in particular, objects that I have sold and wish I had hung onto; items I replaced thinking that a newer model would improve on what I already owned.

That easily could be the case with a camera. I would be paying $400 for something I don’t need and whose purpose is better fulfilled by my iPhone. I might change my mind about the new camera if I reviewed my iPhone photography course and remembered that photography is the real issue, not the camera I use for it.

Still, it would feel nice to hold a real camera again. I could pretend that I am a reporter the way I was on the Mississippi Gulf Coast. The newspaper sent me out on assignment with an early model Nikon Coolpix that took remarkably good photos.

The photo I liked best was of a mother whose son who had just graduated from the Job Corps program in Gulfport near the Seabee base. The mother had a faraway look in her eye as if she were dreaming about her son’s future. I caught the meaning of the graduation in the mother’s face, not the graduate’s. I wrote a good story, too.

That was fun, being a reporter. I drove the editor crazy by submitting dozens of changes to each story. I couldn’t submit it once and let it go. My creative juices were flowing, and I constantly thought of improvements while taking a shower or doing the dishes, turning the sentences over and over in my head.

I will go to the Biloxi Sun Herald website someday and pay to search its archives for some of my photos and stories.

Back to this incipient purchase of almost $400. Look at your iPhone, Eric. Isn’t that good enough for you? And it’s always in your pocket. How about a cooling off period? Eat lunch and mull it over. Come to your senses. Are you crazy, spending $400 on a camera you don’t need?

One thought on “Frenzy

  1.  Eric, “Frenzy” is a good read. I loved it, the binary issue of want versus need. Not too long ago, I had a conversation with Susan, a neighbor, a few weeks before she died of cancer. She admired, she said, that I ride my bicycle in the neighborhood. I told her how much I like and enjoy riding my bike, but the saddle that came with the bike was not very comfortable. I told her that I had been checking out bike saddle at the REI store, but couldn’t justify the $150-plus price. “Buy it, Nestor,” she said. “Life is short. As much as you ride your bike, you deserve a bike saddle that you need and want. You won’t regret it.” As regards a camera, it seems that it is both a want and a need. If your finances allow it, buy the camera, Eric. I am certain that the camera that you so beautifully described in your blog, can be put to use in a way that will enhance your talent as a writer. Visuals that you capture with a good camera will complement words that you produce as a writer. I did buy the bike saddle that Susan encouraged me to buy. When I ride my bike in the neighborhood and pass Susan’s house, I think of her and her encouragement. I am glad I took her advice. Life is too short. Again, thank you for sharing your writing. ~ nestor ~

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